The Beginning

 Tristan
My guardian angel, my love, the bumble to my bee.

[CHAPTER ONE]



The story - January 15th, 2007 -- The day I first laid eyes on the boy who would forever, change my life. I met him at the mall, when he was witnessing about God with his friend. He had an amazing relationship with the Lord, high ambitions, and the most charming smile.

It wasn't long until Myspace (oh yes, I dare say so) linked us, and we started getting to know each other via late night phone conversations. A few weeks later, he showed up at my doorstep, and we shared a sweet silence while sitting in his car. I remember how nervous I was, and how good he smelled. When bidding farewell, he kissed me out of the blue, for the first time. As soon as I was inside and he had driven off, I turned my back to the wall and slid down as butterflies tickled through me.
I was 15, and he was 19. He was the most carefree spirit that I had ever, met. I was guarded, sheltered, and wanting out. Did he intimidate me? Yes, and no. As nervous and excited as I got around him, I knew better than to let myself fall too hard for anyone. With that in mind, he intrigued me too much that I'd be foolish not to take a risk.

"Tell me, tell me, what makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure.
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable. Impossible..."

For the next few months, he snuck me out, nearly every other night. He made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter. He showed me life outside of my walls. Hand in hand, he opened up a whole different world. He would stop in the middle of the road at night, turn his car around while saying the cheesiest of lines, "You turned my world around." We had dedicated melodies, and I made sure to always leave my perfume lingering in his room. We would go to the top of our special place that overlooked the city. He was my SpiderMan, and I was his Mary Jane (even had the upside down kiss). As ridiculous as his antics were, I was always having fun with him. He was exactly what I needed in life at the time, but he soon stopped me in my tracks. He claimed that he loved me, but I still wasn't ready to fall in love quite yet. I wasn't ready to let my guard down.

"Our song is the slamming screen door, sneakin' out late, tapping on your window.  When we're on the phone and you talk real slow, cause it's late and your mama don't know."

Reality eventually set in; I was still in high school, and he had college & his job, but our story was nowhere near over. Little did we know, it was merely the beginning. For the next few years, regardless of who we were dating, what was happening with our lives, or how busy we were - we always kept in contact, and remained soley in each other's hearts. We missed so many opportunities to maintain a commited, romantic relationship because of our conflicting schedules, but it never stopped us from the pursuit.
Could this be out of line?  To say you're the only one breaking me down like this.
You're the only one I would take a shot on, keep me hanging on so contagiously...
We dated on and off, but we were at such different points of our lives. I was starting college, and he was a workaholic. Even times when we were "off", we would continue to see each other; whether it was after he hit the gym, at school, or when he'd bring me french fries. The longest we went without contacting each other was only 2 months out of the past 3 years. "There are certain people you just keep coming back to." We kept pursuing "us" because we knew, that there would soon be a day when life would stop getting in the way. Thankfully, we strived to see each other very often. We were always there for one another through rough times - as friends, as lovers. He was someone I could always rely on, and I made sure I returned the favor. God wasn't going to make it easy for us to unravel our soul ties.
& I'm holding on to you. No one else will ever do.

Eventually, everything fell into place. God brought us back together, and I cannot even begin to explain how perfect and surreal the timing was. He accepted a huge commitment which led us to this wonderful journey we are now on. I am so blessed to have him by my side. He has the biggest heart, and I know I will guard it forever. He is an amazing father to our son, the sweetest lover, and I cannot imagine the rest of my life without him.
He and I share "my type love."

"[meeting] in the middle with our fears and our hang-ups and our issues to love and live and live and love and love and live"

You have no idea, how lucky I am.
I've got a love as unexplainable as [He] is.